Tired

Dear...How are you doing?
I missed my son...I missed you...
But when i met him...i missed you much more...
I missed us having a dinner...
Just three of us...laughing...
Playing in the bed...watching tv.

The day we were married,
It's the most happiest day in my life...
Even though i know the consequences
I choose you over my family...
I leave everything what my life had behind,
And start a new life with you.

I'm happy because i think finally found someone who will share my life forever,
And we swore each other...for whatever happens,we'll be always together...
But it is not how it used to be now...
Your love for me has gone...
Because i can't find enough money for three of us ?
Then why you said you wanted to be with me getting through all of this,
You realize and you were saying it yourself...
Even it's hard to do,you said,you want to live it as long as it with me.

Is it just some nice words for a happy moment ?
You want to know when is the most sad times of my life ?
It's not when you said you wanted a divorce,
It's when you're going out with some man i didn't even know,
It's when i found out,that you're still in contact with him even it's passed 2 years
It's when you go to a party with everyone i didn't even know.
And i had to find out all that secrets you keep...
At times i put all my heart for you already,at times i trusted you more than myself.

All of this,may be easy for you...
But for me ? i had to take pills to stop my brain from thinking of you.
I had to pretend to everyone that the marriage i'm so proud of before,
Is crumbling into pieces.
What makes this more sad is there's not even a piece of it left to collect and put it back.

I can't stop thinking why you can count me out from your life
Why i can't do the same to you,
Why i am suffering all of this...
How many years i need to bear until i die ?

It's almost a new year...
This time and from now,it'll be without you.
My love for you is eternal,it won't burn off.
I love you.

Happy Mother's Day

Dear...Happy Mother Day...
I never stop missing you...
How are you ?

Year ago we were laughing at this time...
We were together...
Now it's all gone...

I'm always hallucinating you calling me...
But when i look outside...
You were never there...

I guess i'm just missing your voice
Your face,
Your smile,
I will always love you dear...

I'm all right

You say our story has ended for a long time...
I forgot,I go forward.

I pretend I'm all right now
You don't look like you need me
Perhaps in a different time line
I'm still holding your hand
I'd like to know how you are
Without me, you're probably relieved

I'm now used to being alone
Perhaps you've started a new life
Being with me was loneliness
Who is with you now?

Perhaps in a different time
I'm still holding your hand

Memories

After leaving you
I did not gain anymore freedom
Sensing our distance
Has been forgotten as time goes by
A love that lacks oxygen
I know it is not your fault
We just forgot to step back

We made ... promises to each other
Yet they become empty with time
It's just letting go would make it easier
But the most beautiful love will continue in my memory

Burst out

When things should be lively,
You are actually not here anymore
What kind of conversation can one person hold?
All that's left in this empty room is my helplessness
You will never return again
I am silently trying to forget love...

I'm waiting for you to come back...
But that's impossible
You've choose to leave me forever
And live another life

A little breakout from my heart

A step forward, already the end
Along the way we've forgotten how to love each other's silliness...
No one will know how to help...
Until nothing can be done...

Don't want to cry mistaken tears yet they should be shed...
I know that sadness will not be able to change anything
If that's the case, then let me be honest a little bit
I can only close the door and ignore the world
Sitting alone inside this empty space
Let the cellphone rest for a night...

It's so difficult to cut off all the frames of memory...
Loneliness lit up,
I want to thank for all that you gave and took away
Having to love you still, carries a little scar
Only time can heal the wound...
Passionate love leaves painful traces

Forever love...

Loving you...

Not just for your beauty...

I love you more and more...

Because you made me see forever...

And then i understood myself...

That day are coming...

I will appreciate them properly...

Loving me

Sometimes it's painful,sometimes it's unfair...

I only want to use my life to love you

From now onwards

You will be everything

A reason for happiness...

I wish you always happy and smile again...

Still about loving you

Having arrived at this moment,i'm still the same...
Loneliness of the night easily makes people hurt...
I don't dare to think too much...
Because i'm all by myself.

I don't know your news anymore...
Because i'm thinking of you...
I'm so care for you...

Please love me once more...
If you say don't love me...
I don't wanna really hear you said it...
Just give me a bit warmth again...


Love you dear

I miss you

Mi...i miss you so much...
Why you changed your phone numbers...
I can't find you anywhere...
I'm so depressed...

I keep thinking of you...please don't do this to me anymore...
I can't live without you...i beg you...
Come back to my life...

Why you never understand me...
Why you never think of me...
How my heart to you,how cold you were to me...
Even though...i always love you...
But why now you leave me...why now...

I'm dying slowly mi...i pray everyday...
So you can come back to my life...
You don't need to love me,i just need you to lend me your hand for 1 minute a day...
It's enough...
You don't need to kiss me,just embrace me,be dearest one to me...

I'm so sad...you're the only thing i ever need in my life...
But you're gone...